I was recently sharing my story with a fellow warrior.  I expressed that my energy levels are good and that I live a pretty normal life considering the battle I just fought.  I also told of how I am grateful for each and every additional day that I have on this earth.  And it is all true.  I wouldn’t change a thing.  That isn’t to say that the daily battle isn’t real and that I don’t have my share of challenges to overcome. 

There are times throughout my journey that I am physically, emotionally, and mentally challenged and each of them play-off of one another.  Thoughts like: “Why me?”, “This isn’t fair!”, “I don’t want this.”, occasionally cross my mind. 

To give you context, I put my body through a lot with chemo and radiation therapy and I have muscular issues and sometimes cognitive issues.  I am overcoming these.  I choose to wear a Continuous Glucose Monitor so that I do not need to prick my finger multiple times a day to get my blood sugar numbers.  I choose to wear an insulin pump to automate many math processes that I have had to perform each time I eat since my surgery.   Another aspect of this is that I surrendered my pride and allowed modern medical device technology to be affixed to my body so that I can live as close to my old self as possible. 

Then I think….wait…. WhyMe!?

I ask, “God why did you choose me to walk through this exceptionally low place in my life?” And I answer with, “So, I can I step out in faith, believe you, watch You faithfully respond and prove Your existence to others that may not know You yet.  So, I can bring the gospel to this earth for others to see and experience in their lives.”

Seemingly bad days take on a new shape in the light of God’s presence.  He shines light on the value that can be found in the bad or challenging circumstances.  In a moment, I am realizing that my spirit is soaring with Him and my troubles are behind me.

I am so grateful and blessed to be able to have this opportunity to tell you that God is real.  He is the creator of the universe and He loves each one of us enough to send His one and only son, Jesus Christ to this earth to die so that we can have a relationship with Him. 

I may never know, Why me? But God was there for me and I can be there for others.

Peace,

Rita

John 3:16 New International Version (NIV) “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”